2.28.24 - What if we aren’t supposed to know?
Good morning ,
The other day my daughter was asking me some really tough questions that I just didn't have the answers to. I could tell I was getting frustrated because she kept asking stuff that I didn't know the answer to and frankly I didn't want to talk about.
For those of you who may be newer to receiving my emails or haven't heard my testimony, I am a survivor of domestic violence and it's only by the grace of God that I am sitting here today healthy and in right mind. My daughter's biological father not only caused harm to me, but caused harm to her as well. When she was 2 years old she was picked up from daycare by him and when I got her back something was not right. Her leg felt hot and she did not seem her typical self. I ended up taking her to the hospital and it was determined she had a severe burn on her leg. From there, I went and filed a report with DCS and it was determined to be physical abuse. At the time of this incident he was getting her once a week and every other weekend. Once this situation happened he was no longer able to see her without supervision, which he refused to participate in supervised visitation. Instead it led to him giving up full parental rights & supervised visitation, no longer paying child support and no longer contacting us. The whole thing is heartbreaking and lots of wondering "why."
As my daughter gets older she has periods where she asks a lot questions. The other night was one of those nights she had a lot of questions. After asking a ton of questions, she asked me how she got the burn on her leg. I told her I didn't know what happened. I explained that at that time she did not have the vocabulary to say what happened other than "daddy hit me". I thought about it for a few seconds because I could tell she was disappointed she didn't have the truth. Then it dawned on me.
Maybe it's best we don't know the truth about some things. So I told her "Sometimes it's God's grace saving us from the pain of knowing the truth. Sometimes knowing the truth can actually hurt us more. And it probably saved me from retaliation."
You see when this situation occurred I went through a period of plotting. You know when someone wrongs you, you start plotting all these ways to get back at them. That was me. My grandma kept telling me "if you do the right thing you will come out on top." It was hard to listen to her, but she was right. I also knew that I couldn't raise my daughter from jail and if I got caught there's where I would be. Instead of seeking revenge I kept praying that despite what I wanted that God's will would be done.
So I want to remind you sometimes it's best that we don't get the answer to our "why". Sometimes it's God saving us from more pain and heartache. I don't know how your week is going but it's been an emotion filled week for me. I'm so glad that God used my daughter to reveal more of his grace to me. I hope this email encourages you and you can see God's grace in your life.
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Love,
Danielle
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